Why do I even bother asking ?

I'm just gonna keep getting the same answer. I'm not even disappointed that I keep getting a no. Even when I ask, I expect the answer to be "I'm tired". What's the use? I'm just going to make myself sad asking. This is why I just want to stop asking all together. Because it's not like he'll ever say yes these days. Might as well just keep this desire to see his face to myself now. It's not like it's going to do anything. It'll only just ruin my mood entirely and make me feel completely uninterested in anything else about today. I quit. Why bother?